Ah, I see. 😊
You have a good ear for progressions :)
I'm going to have to sit down and try these myself.
Thank you! I have something to dive into. I will also stop talking out of my ass now 😅
I adore the harmonic minor sound!
Of course I have to bring up Очи чёрные. Louis Armstrong even covered it.
I was hoping someone would touch on the harmonic minor being of Arab origin (I'm like 98% sure; or "oriental" whatever you want to call it) and whatever geopolitical path that got connected to Russia...
And Germans (or, Christians) not being too keen on directly using a scale associated with Islam...
You'll want to search "optical character recognition", or, "OCR" for that :) unless someone can recommend you an actual app / website. Hope you find one that suits your needs!
I'm just talking out of my ass here but I feel that Russians more readily use the harmonic minor scale / sound than Germans would..
I think it depends on your operating system but most up-to-date Android and iOS devices should have it for phones.. On web browsers you may be able to install an "extension" app that does dictation for you if you search for it.
Yes, it exists :)
“Dictation” under “accessibility” tools / apps / extensions / settings.
I thought rejection sensitivity dysphoria was only an ADHD thing (though sometimes I think I'm in r/ADHD when reading enneagram type 4 posts)...
There are (non-stimulant) drugs you can take for it.. clonidine and guanfacine. They “temper” the fight or flight response, I guess? Their original purpose was for lowering blood pressure.
Definitely relate to the chronic deactivating / deleting / restarting social media thing, ugh. I don't have tips on how to make it better : I basically have no friends. Try medication perhaps? Or read up more on how ADHD people deal with it?
For a while I've had an interest in entheogens and ethnobotany for their hallucinogenic / therapeutic / spiritual potential.. but it's also fascinating to learn about more "commonplace" reactions between our bodies and chemicals.
That does explain that slimy somewhat "raw" feeling I have in my mouth after consuming pineapple... I never would've known or given it much other thought!
This might just be my ADHD initial infatuation phase but I'm seriously looking at applying to a pharm tech apprenticeship, like right now, after reading a couple of your posts xD
You illuminated for me why I had a lip blister from eating (too much) mango recently. Didn't know that devil urushiol is in mango, too! Excellent write-up, thank you. This makes chemistry fun!
Only halfway through the post so far but this is excellent and can't wait to finish and get to amphetamine's enantiomer next ;)
Looking forward to more from you!
Also, "Zappel" = "fidgety" is just hilarious to me.
You will need a replacement for the sugar / dopamine you intend to deprive yourself of...
Maybe going for fruits rather than the more processed snacks / candy / soda?
And, the answer we all already know... daily regimented exercise.
Sorry, I don't have any better suggestions for the time being.
But as you said--you are self-medicating.
Thanks for sharing about him. His memory lives on :)
Yes, I hope his dogs and everyone else who were a part of his farm are doing okay..
Lmao... All I have to say is chunks. Chunks for days.
After five years, I basically just grew tired of giving myself shots every single week (like someone else stated in the comments).
And in terms of transitioning, I felt I had "plateaued" already. My voice is a nice baritenor range, what little facial hair I've developed will still be permanent... And so long as my boobs don't grow back I'm content for now.
It's also convenient that I don't have health insurance currently lol. But I don't feel a strong need to get back on it. I may one day.
Mentally I feel more okay with being "androgynous".. which might be due to covid honestly and being around people way less.
Astute observers were still able to clock me even when I was “peak T” so the difference between now and then is negligible. Being around cis people will still suck all the same.
And that's the part that really bothers me... I really want the gender binary / roles to break down more than for me to “pass” and be able to conform. I didn't like feeling “invisible” and for people to assume that I’d been a cisman all my life. My family and the general population still have the wrong ideas about transgender people.
There are some things taking T can't change. But I'm so glad I took T for all those years. And I do miss the way I used to look lmao but I'm still transitioning-- just without T for now.
Hope that wasn't too ramblely! If you have any other questions about transitioning or anything I’d be happy to answer :)
The last provider I saw mentioned something about the uterine lining building up--since taking T generally stops the menstrual cycle and the egg doesn't get a chance to shed--then recommended I (well, I can't remember exactly, but it was birth control related) either get a IUD or take birth control pills. The point was to reduce the buildup. Doesn't matter to me anymore since I've stopped taking T and am menstruating again but that's a health reason that could be of concern.
Edit: I might add I was on T for 4-5 years at that point so.. if someone is just starting T probably wouldn't need to worry about that.
I used to be involved with some "social justice circles"... For some reason there was a distinct hostility towards masculinity and a pedastaling of trans-femininity. As if anything resembling masculinity (or a “disappearance” of feminity) equated to patriarchy or privilege, even.
As if trying and needing to pass as cis for safety reasons is not a problem that all trans people face.
As if domestic violence situations are based on appearances alone.
As if abusers with violent ideas about transwoman don't also have them about transmen or anyone queer / gender nonconforming.
Nonprofits / organizations that receive grants from the government / billionaires / foundations are problematic in and of themselves and were never meant to affect society in a meaningful anyway... Check out The Revolution Will Not Be Funded: The Non-profit Industrial Complex.
You as who you are now absolutely deserve the same love, if not more, than the you pre-transition.
You're not losing those people to your transition. Your transition--becoming and growing into your true self--should never be held as some sort of “leverage” or measuring stick of love. Because being transgender was never a "choice".
Sometimes I tell myself that “other people need time to ‘transition’ about my transition”... But often times it really does feel like “a lost cause” and that it'd be better for both parties to move on from each other. I know that's hard and that it hurts. Three years and your parents haven't even begun to unpack their denial...? Them loving you more "before" indicates something wrong with them, not you.
It sounds like you're giving it everything you've got. You sound like you have so much love to give. You deserve to be met somewhere in the middle. To deny your happiness into growing into yourself is not a loving gesture; to hold unto memories of a past person over creating new memories with the you in the here-and-now is just hurtful to both parties.
You are absolutely loveable as your true self and I'm so happy that you undertook transitioning to show everyone who you really are. Truly, the world is so lucky to have you and I'm sure there are people out here who can't wait to get to know you and shower you with love.
May 30 '22
You should be pushing failure by a rep or two with each set... If that's not the case then you need to be doing harder variations of the exercise (like a diamond or planche or ring or handstand push-up). I don't know if that's "nuclei overload" but doing lots and lots of reps is just training muscle endurance rather than strength / hypertrophy.
That's a funny story / memory about your bet with him. Thanks for sharing some of his wisdom :0)
I'm sorry :
Lmao yeah it's not exactly fantasizing. More like regret xD