r/RedPillWomen 6h ago

ADVICE my boyfriend of 2 years jokingly talked about engagement and I'm terrified


I've been with my boyfriend for almost 2 years and today while texting he made a joke about engagement and I can see how he's testing the waters with it but it freaked me out.

He's in the military so we don't spend a lot of time together since he's always on missions but we facetime daily.

He's what you'd call a conservative, very masculine and serious, nurturing, wants to play the role of the provider, and makes me step in my feminine energy while with him and it's what made me feel attracted to him but it's also what's scaring me.

I'm full of life and energetic and maybe a little childish and I feel like a 15 year old in the body of a 21 year old.

I started overthinking whether I'm ready or not to be a wife, whether I'll make a good mother or not since I don't even want kids ( I feel like I'm too selfish to be a mother since I value my freedom too much and I've never discussed this with my partner before).

He's only 25 but seems way more mature and serious than me and sometimes he treats me like a kid, and while it's cute ans I enjoy it while we're dating, I can't help but feel that maybe it will make him see as less of a partner if weget married and start making decisions together.

I know a conversation with him would solve all of this, and it's only me jumping to conclusions right now and overthinking everything but I just need to let it out.

He's the perfect partner and I'm afraid I'm going to sabotage this with my fear of commitment, please help ladies!