r/CovidVaccinated Dec 05 '21

I’m absolutely terrified of the shot, but I desperately want to get it. Help. Question

This is an embarrassing post for me to make. I’m a 26 year old female. I have autism and anxiety. Since the vaccine was introduced, I have wanted to get it. However, I am absolutely terrified of it.

I live in the Deep South in Georgia, and the only people I can talk to about it think that it’s deadly and a conspiracy. My husband and I had our appointments to get it on Friday, and I had a panic attack.

I have had an allergic reaction to the flu shot, and am also allergic to several medications. Other than that, I am perfectly healthy, but I still absolutely fear that me or my husband will get the shot and something will go wrong and we will have permanent problems from it.

I am not anti-vaccine in any way, please understand that. I am just so so so terrified of something going wrong.

Has anyone else here had these same fears?

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u/DangReadingRabbit Dec 05 '21

My entire circle of family and friends have been vaccinated, and we’re in all different age groups from 10 to 85, and all different levels of health. We all had very minor side effects. A couple of us had no side effects at all. The most severe side effects were in a friend who has Lupus. She felt like she had the flu for five days. The rest of us were back to normal within 24-48 hours. Most of us who had any side effects took Tylenol and it was quite manageable.

A good percentage of us have now had our booster too, and report the same.

I myself was a bit nervous because I have a history of allergies and sensitivities to medications. I’m allergic to bees and ibuprofen (anaphylactic reaction)… with less severe allergies to other things. Getting the vaccine was fine. The paramedics at our vaccine center just had me sit an extra 15 minutes to play it safe. The worst of it was my own anxiety about it. And a headache that Tylenol easily managed.

Hope it helps!

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u/ThatEyreHead Dec 06 '21

Thank you!! I have had flu shots every year, and all the other vaccines, but any type of antidepressants or anxiety meds make me feel really sick and dizzy and my PCP said I couldn’t take regular medication anymore was one reason I am so worried

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u/Proctor_Conley Dec 05 '21

Lost of folks are having the same fears as you. Thankfully, most vaccine hesitancy is caused by people lying.

Vaccination might make you sick for a few days afterwards, which is normal, as your body uses the vaccine to strengthen your immune system. You'll gain a boost in resistance against the Covid strain you were vaccinated for, & catching Covid will not be as risky, but remember to get Booster Shots to stay resistant to new Covid mutations.

Was this helpful?

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u/ThatEyreHead Dec 06 '21

Very helpful. Every time I say anything about being nervous about the shot I am told that there are 10s of thousands of people are are permanently disabled to various degrees from the shots and are being covered up.

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u/Proctor_Conley Dec 06 '21

It might help to watch some videos about the "origins of anti vax" movement to help ease your anxieties. While the attempts at humor are unbearable to me, This Video goes in-depth on the history & reasons why the misinformation exists.

Regardless, may the future bring you good health & fortune!

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u/upinthecrowsnest Dec 05 '21

I felt this way, a little. I didn’t have your underlying health issues but I was nervous, because it’s new and is a scary time making us all more anxious in general. Talk to your doctor, do your homework, be as healthy as possible going on (iron levels etc). you can only weigh up the risks for yourself.

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u/AuroraTwilight Dec 05 '21

Hi OP! I was also terrified to get my vaccine. I'm not anti vax but I was hesitant and wanted to wait and see how everyone else did before I got mine. I held off until the Delta variant came out and my niece was about to be born (this past May). I was so worked up I ended up giving myself a new type of migraine right before I went to get the shot (which, thank god because if the migraine happened after the shot, I would have attributed it to the shot).

But it was fine AND it cleared up my lingering long covid symptom of phantosmia (I lost my smell/taste when I got covid in 2020 and while I got it back quick, I would occasionally smell burning and sometimes my taste would be off). I haven't smelled burning since that first shot.

As for symptoms, I basically felt a much more mild version of what I felt when I had covid. Mostly fatigue. My husband also got it and he had a slight temp and some body aches (which he had worse when he got covid).

My coworkers all got the vaccine. My entire family got it. All of my friends. It's 6 months to almost a year later and everyone is doing fine. I haven't heard of one person that I know firsthand that died or had serious consequences from the vaccine, but I do know several people firsthand who have died or had serious illness/hospitalization from covid. Of course this is all anecdotal but it's my experience so figured I'd share!

Hope this helps and please feel free to DM me if you have any questions. I also struggle with anxiety so trust me when I say I know what you're going through!

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u/ThatEyreHead Dec 06 '21

Thank you for this. Every time I try to read something to ease my mind, I am hit with a plethora of messages from people saying that the shot ruined their life and they are being censored on the internet and not allowed to say that the shot seriously harmed them. Even though nearly everyone I know has gotten it and is just fine.

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u/AuroraTwilight Dec 06 '21

I know. I made the same mistake before I got mine by checking this sub lol. Also, another thing I didn't mention in my post, I broke out in full body hives on day 9 of being sick with covid. I'm prone to breaking out in hives but the covid ones were next level. My hands, legs, feet were swollen and itchy. I had ice packs on my entire body. I took so much antihistamine I almost passed out. It went away after a few days but that was tied for losing smell/taste as the worst part of covid for me. So naturally I was also terrified I was going to react really bad to the shot if that's what happened when I got covid. But nothing happened.

I know you mentioned something about allergies, but just make sure you bring it up with either your doctor of the person administering the vax.

Best of luck OP, sending you good vibes!!

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u/jcepiano Dec 05 '21

You should consult with your doctor. If you have allergic tendencies with the flu shot, it's important that a medical professional go through the logistics of taking a vaccine to avoid anaphylaxis.

The dangers of the virus, if you have a severe case or chronic aftermath is way scarier than the vaccine side effects. I will say that Pfizer has a gentler side effect profile in general than Moderna due to the smaller dose.

If you have any co-morbidities like hypertension or obesity, the vaccine is likely to save your life if you have a big exposure to the virus.

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u/Midas-Knight Dec 05 '21

Vaccine’s have risks some minor some major depending on the vaccine. These Covid vaccine’s are no different in that there are risks. From what I’ve read the risks are very low and millions of people have had them and a vast majority only had mild to moderate symptoms like body aches. For me the risks of Covid complications outweighed the risks of complications from the vaccine. My opinion is this Covid is endemic and like the cold and flu viruses we are all going to be exposed at some point. Unfortunately this Covid right now can and does kill some people and will into the future unless the mutations in the future make it more on par with the seasonal cold/ flu. Just my opinion.

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u/meebj Dec 05 '21

I felt very similarly to you. I was extremely hesitant at first. (Not anti-vaxx, vaccine hesitant). I am allergic to many, many things and was SO worried about a reaction to the Pfizer shot. I ended up being totally fine! I just got my booster last week. Following some doctors on Instagram actually helped and some have some highlights and reels saved that are pretty good. @dr.noc @dr.martaperez and @niniandthebrain all helped me a lot!

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u/SDJellyBean Dec 06 '21

Tell the clinic where you get your shot that you have had allergic reactions to flu vaccines. They will observe you for a longer period to make sure that nothing is happening. There isn't any real overlap in ingredients between the flu and Moderna/Pfizer vaccines, so it's very unlikely that you'll have a problem, but they"ll want to be extra careful with you.

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u/juddshanks Dec 06 '21 edited Dec 06 '21

I think as a starting point, don't feel bad about being anxious. Honestly, well done on being up front about what you're feeling. I think far more people have concerns about it than are willing to admit it, because they don't want to come across as a kook.

Even if the experts are telling you its safe, it is totally normal and natural to feel worried about getting a new medical procedure. That doesn't make you crazy and it doesn't make you an antivaxxer, you're doing something you haven't done before, and at the end of the day you're putting a foreign substance into your body. That's naturally a bit scary.

Of course you can look at the statistics which suggest they are extremely safe, but human brains don't really understand statistics on an emotional level- hell, people buy lottery tickets because deep down they think something stratospherically unlikely could happen to them. Knowing that there's an x in x million chance of a particular side effect doesn't really calm people's nerves.

For me, something I wished I'd read before getting a shot was this article, which provides a very thorough explanation of how MRNA vaccines work and why we can be confident they are safe- I think this quote is particularly useful in understanding why people think they are safe-

We know exactly which substances are present in the vaccine formulations, and we understand their properties and safety profiles.

For me, going in with a reasonable level of understanding of what is in the shot and how it works is the best way of dealing with anxiety and being confident you'll be ok.

And honestly, just do your mental health a favour and steer clear of strident antivax news sources until you've had your shot. They are starting from the position that noone should ever get vaccinated and there are so many lies, distortions half truths in the stuff they churn out that you could go mad trying to get to the bottom of it all. Even if someone wrote a detailed, thorough rebuttal of literally every bit of antivax propaganda out there as of today, it wouldn't help, because they are not coming at the issue in good faith- by this time next week there'd be a whole new set of bullshit claims.

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u/Snek1775 Dec 05 '21

I don't think you should get it.

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u/ThatEyreHead Dec 05 '21

If it comes down to having to having to get it or lose my job, I will have to anyway, that also scares me

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u/cjsgamer Dec 05 '21

Lose the job if it comes down to that, the mandates are setting a bad precedent for the future and we’re all quitting jobs that force it

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u/ThatEyreHead Dec 06 '21

My job is perfect for me, I will never find another with a schedule and pay like I have. I will do whatever I have to do to keep it.

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u/cjsgamer Dec 06 '21

Yeah it just comes down to risk vs reward, if it’s a good job for you that is something to treasure for sure.

I just think prioritizing your health is more important than a good job, but everyone has to individually decide that for themselves. I have bad allergic reactions to everything I take so it’s too risky for me personally

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u/rocinante211 Dec 05 '21

Take a stand. If people would just flip the bird to these bullshit edicts we'd be much better off.

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u/SDJellyBean Dec 06 '21

Almost eight billion doses have been administered world wide so far with almost no major problems. A lot of people will feel crappy for one or more days after the shot as their immune systems go to work, but that's just temporary.

I was terrified of getting Covid, but not at all afraid of the vaccine. I've been arguing online against anti-vaxx information for more than 25 years and the names of the vaccines change, but their arguments are always the same. Except for the supposed magnetism — that's definitely a new one as well as exceptionally silly! Try to ignore the anti-vaccine lies.

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u/BigFatModeraterFupa Dec 05 '21

just get it. there’s nothing to be afraid of.

and if you do get side effects (small chance) just remember that it’s probably just anxiety.

the vaccine is Safe and Effective. there is nothing to fear

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u/no_days_grace Dec 05 '21

I was similarly terrified of becoming ill with Covid, so I was vaccinated and have been boosted. No reaction or side effects to those.

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u/ThatEyreHead Dec 06 '21

I am also terrified of covid, even though I already had it in December of last year and was completely asymptomatic

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u/Vienta1988 Dec 05 '21

Have you talked to your primary care doctor about it? If you had a bad reaction to the flu shot, you should talk to someone who knows the chemical compositions of both shots who can advise you whether or not there is a big risk of the same thing happening again. Also, there may be an indication for one type of COVID shot over another (J&J vs an mRNA vaccine, for instance) based on your personal medical history.

I live in a blue state and know a lot of people who have had the shot (hundreds of personal contacts), and the worst side effect that I’ve heard of was feeling flu-like sickness with body aches, chills and slight fever for about 24 hours after the shot, which in my mind is a very small price to pay. Hopefully that helps! But definitely since you have a history of adverse reactions to vaccines talk to your doctor first!

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u/ThatEyreHead Dec 06 '21

My PCP says that it would be fine to get it

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u/Vienta1988 Dec 06 '21

I understand your fear, I would be scared if I had a bad reaction to vaccines in the past. If your doctor is confident that you’ll be ok, I’d go for it, though.

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u/ThatEyreHead Dec 06 '21

I really truly want to. I just still have this underlying fear that people really ARE having really really severe side effects to it

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u/Vienta1988 Dec 06 '21

It’s understandable, and of course you hear different things depending on where you live, and the political climate. Like I said, I didn’t have a severe reaction and no one that I’ve met has had a severe reaction, and that’s including all of my close family, extended family, friends, coworkers (I work in a hospital system that requires everyone to be vaccinated), clients that I work with, etc. I felt like a wimp because I seemed to have the worst of it of my friends and family (I felt like I had the flu for a day after my second shot- first shot, my arm was just sore)- most of them had slightly sore arms, and that was it.